my desire

i really missed my DANCE!

narcism

yesterday, i attended some gathering in my church. many blessed that i've got. 
when it's time to go home, Bilga asked us to take some photos with him.. absolutely we accepted it!
and after this, i realize that the narcism of mine almost forgotten. hahaha, hope you guys understand what i mean.
and i'm struggling (too much!aka Lebai pisan) to on it again! wait and see, pals :)

LOMO

you know what's that??

just check this out!

i want it so bad!! aaaaaaa.....

let's save more LoL

oh, will...

okay, i'm forget to tell you, guys, that...

Will Smith is very COOOOOOOOOOOLLLLL!!! Truly he makes me mad!
His act on Bad Boys, 7Pounds, MIB, The Pursuit of Happyness, I am Legend, and Hancock really ow-some!

 love love love :)

lesson of the day

so, God let me learn about one thing, ehm.. many thing i guess..


i got very anger with my cousin. it's been a long time, but yesterday (maybe) should be the top of the anger. i don't know why she's become like that, really annoying! argh..!! when we meet on the talk, her eyes didn't want to look at mine! i hate it so bad. what's wrong with us?! when i asked her,"what's wrong with u?", she just answered annoyingly,"I'm okay.." with her eyes look at another thing! argh..! she has been like this maybe for a week.

hey girl what's up?!

and the other 'annoying' thing that i've got is the people in my work (i guess) didn't care about me. i felt it, start from monday, when we met together for the meeting. when it's time to go home, no one suggest their self to delivered me to the dorm! oh, God, really...

then yesterday (in the same day with the cousin), when i went for the meeting in my work, and when we are talked about the transport to went home, everybody looks like didn't care with my feeling, they tried to 'help' me to get the transport, but, i think that's not the right way!

but, in the night, i've a girl-talk with Albina and Angela, i'm trying to shout out my really-bad-feeling there. and you, know, guys? Albina said that maybe God is watching on you now. oh, God... is it true??

i'm so shy! why i can't enjoy His way?! why i let my face being so dark and horrible?!

i'm so thankful too, guys, because... He's look at me, and really wanna help me to go out from my ego, from my childish, and from my negative thinking hobby LoL

so, that's the lesson of the day...

be graceful, all 

P.S i'll be going to my home-sweet-home today, because tomorrow i'll be the MC in my church event.. yeay!

today is saturday

hahaha, so what if 'today is saturday'?! LoL

so, i'm trying to tell you, bloggie, about all things that i've did yesterday with my friends.

i will attending gogirl! look 2010, so, i need to have photoshoot for it. yesterday i went to M photo studio with the girls, then take a lot of picture there. but, one thing that i realized, i'm not beauty enough neither photogenic. so, i think this is my crazy and very playful idea to attend it. but, it's my life, i'm entertainer wanna be, so it's the first step that i should do, rite?! haha..

steffi, put some make up on me.
inge, lend her pants for me.

angela, let me used her tanktop for it.

vina, for support me a lot

and monic, let the photographer lend her cam

on my way to ciwalk, many people look at me with their awkward eyes (my own word). one thing that i get, don't care what people say about us. hey, i am pretty enough ya?? hahaha, thank you, thank you.

then, the photographer forget to bring his camera, so monic lend him hers. and we can take a lot of pose that we like, just because his careless. hahaha... what a beautiful mess!!

but i guess monic haven't upload the pic yet.. so here some pic from my awesome camera..

and here the photos that i'll send to the competition...

well, i guess, sometimes we must follow up our self-esteem LoL

oh, i will tell you if gogirl! want me to go there, hihihi

wish me a luck!

cheers =9

identity dilemma

it's my daily activity, yeah... stalking other's acc n fb or twitter or blog. hahaha,, is it normal, huh?!
and i've got some lesson from this annoying behavior! what's that??

yeah, i've become others, not me but her.

actually, it's not a good behavior i guess. others have many differences with ourself that she or he can enjoy with it, and absolutely us. we have a lot of things that we can enjoy to feel it.

on my area, there's a lot friend that can't love themself, they always try to be someone. they try to be more than anyone, just like in politics, there is 'security dilemma', if one state have a good weapon, the other tried to get a great weapon. hahaha.. how terribly. oh, maybe we can called it 'identity dilemma', hahaha (my own word)

fake people, yeah, there are many fake people here, and me too (if i can't stop my stalking act and my low thinker!)

just be brave to tell the world, here i am. don't wanna  be followers, but i must be a trendsetter.
just be creative, the world need people who love their self (it's different with self-centered, LoL). hahaha..

so, nicea, it's your time to move up! hahaha

hi, it's me Nicea Gunawan.

i love eating, laughing, talking, dancing,

and absolutely writing.

i'm not smart, i'm just intelligent enough

i love my self,

i love my family,

and i love my friends too..

the best beauty is what u have inside from your heart

be cool, be awesome 

cheers =]

other feeling

today is conflict resolution test. and i can do it, thanks a lot, Lord =)

not only that, i'm in the same class with my boy, ehm, i mean my boy charming (my own word! haha..)
he just ah.. what is the rite word for him ya?? cool mint, hahahaha.. whatever! he is so handsome, like Goo Jun Pyo in Boys Before Flowers. uh... i just can't get you out of my head. haha.. but, many girls said that he is not as good as his look. i don't care. it's just a fans feeling (oh, my own word again!). like you so mucho, you handsome!
tall, handsome, errrr.... he makes me crazy!! like Taylor Swift's song,

I've never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

Let it take me where it wants to go

Til' you opened the door

And there's so much more

I'd never seen it before

I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings

But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier

I watched from a distance as you

Made life your own 

Every sky was your own kind of blue

And I wanted to know how that would feel

And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see

You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier crazier crazier

Ohhhh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for

I don't wanna hide anymore

Oh Ohh

You lift my feet off the ground 

You take me away

You make me crazier crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier crazier crazier

Crazier Crazier

here i show you his duplicate! hihihihi... LoL

hahaha.. it just a little miracle that He gave me this morning. but still You're the one :')

something that i am looking for

so, bloggie.. how low! hehe, i'm trying to be yummy like P.Diddy or Jay-Z or something like that.

u see my title? i'm serious. but, absolutely it's not about LOVE. no!
it's about the LIFE. yes, He is. the Way, the Truth and the Life.

i dunno what i feel now. but, all i wanna do just feel like nothing! why??

i dunno what should i do. well, i guess i need more time with Him. as an ordinary human, i just do what i wanna do. that's so different, it's not easy to do what God want we to do, but we must!

okay, it's just a little share from me nowadays.

cheers...

my great sunday

ok, bloggie, today is sunday. i love sunday. why? because it's time for me to meet Him :) actually, not only in sunday, anytime, He's beside me. ah, sunday is happyday.

okay, then, this morning i was crying in front of Him, i know all the suck things that i have did. and i'm very happy because He has open the eyes of my heart. the best thing that we'll always had.
btw, the sermon talked about "loyalty" so, guys, do u have that? hehehe... neither do i. but, we must do it, because He is.

then, God gave me a lot of snack (esp. chocomilk, yum..yum..) from pastor.

there's a lot of feeling that i would share, but my eyes can't compromise! argh! i feel asleep now, hahaha...

so, maybe i'll continue this writing later (but, there's no promises ya, hehehe  LoL)

have a blessed nite, bloggie...

oh, don't forget to pray for me. the subject for tomorrow is indonesia foreign policy. =]

what single ladies do at sat nite??

2 days later is mid term test. you must know that, till now, i don't have a 'study' mood (my own word, LoL). after i finished my Int'l organization's assignment, my brain really wanna get out for a while from study. maybe because i have used it for a long long time, and it almost burning. hahaha... nonsense!

whereas i remember my father's promises, and his hope for me in this term. but, it just push me up a little. so sorry, dad...

hm, today is saturday. it has been (maybe) 3 years that i've lived my saturday nite by my self only. but, this nite is different. well, i guess, many 'single ladies' feel sad if she pass her sat nite alone. she feel unhappy, and really want to hire someone to be with her(hahaha, just my insane think). hm, let me tell you about what did i do as single ladies in sat nite? this afternoon, i went to Yomart (a minimarket near from my boarding house), then i took my clean and fresh clothes at Simply fresh laundry, then i went to a Bariton's Bread Bakery to have a little lunch. i did it by my self! hahaha.. and i enjoy with the feeling. although my dinner is just instant noodle with a jumbo size LoL, i'm happy. hahaha..

so i guess many things can do for single ladies.

just wanna say thanks for the good feeling, Lord.

okay, i'm trying to study NOW.

i found my idol! LoL

few days ago, me and vina (my college friend) watched Harry Potter 6th together.
and, guess what, that the first time i got my idol! hahahaha...
yes, she is Emma Watson. i just realize that she's very cute. and, i wanna be 'cute' like her, can I?? hahaha... sometimes, we wanna be others, rite?!
and for few minutes ago, i've stalked her picts from google, yeah.. and her style is as cute as i am. but the different is, i don't have any money to buy that cool clothes and the others. hm, that's not a big deal, i think. i'm trying so hard to enjoy my awesome life :')
this is her.



and here i am...



cheers =)

good times with good people

narciso ramos LoL


hello, there! here i am, once again.. hehehe..
two days ago, i went to PVJ (pangandaran van java, hahaha...) with my friends to watch a new film 'Alice in Wonderland' yayaya... i never guess that i'll watch it, because i don't really like it. but, finally, i watch it... before we watch alice, we went for a lunch.. at Qua-li, for the first time, i heard 'wali' hahaha, whatever. i think that's a good place with a good price, wanna try?? hehehehe...
so here some pictures that i can take there...



guess the price?? 20 thousand rp, grrrrr



risty, ninda, rhema, nicea

well i guess the feature from blogger has been different than i knew at the 1st time, hm... yeah, whatever.. enjoy =)

oh, btw, mid term test is coming to town!
lalalalala.... (i closed my eyes when i sing it, huhuhu)